My bands Youtube =)

My bands Youtube =)

Hello All,

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Life has been hectic, transformative and inspiring.

I’ve put my energy into meditation, the music that seems to be flowing so freely from my soul and into the people around me that I cherish. I’ve learned, grown and continue to feel an ever growing sense of graciousness for the bounty this life has to offer.

I’m pleased with where these passions are taking me.

If you like our music feel free to share or leave any feedback. Much more to come!

-When the path of the heart aligns with the will of the mind; our journey blossoms.

http://www.youtube.com/user/TribeRoyalVEVO

Talk soon, time for doe-doe 😉

Love Chris

the ones we love

As the waves of home, beat the crags

My heart stirs, with the peace of the moment

The waters that have washed so many lives,

 Ebb along the shores of my soul

The things we learn,

That which we hold dear,

Every passing breath that left me full of light

Echoed in the comfort found in every gaze upon your face

 

When I think of home, I think of you

As the dew of the morning begins to rise

When I think of love, I think of you

As the winds of spring begin to sigh

Every brush of my lips on yours

Reminds me why my spirit soars

 

The hills that left their bloom of spring

For the colours of fall

Radiate a presence that has always held me dearly

From the stumbling steps of a small boy

To the steadying steps of a man

The flow always pulled me on

As I paced the line drawn upon this cliff

The drop that yawned before

Never seemed so inviting

The beauty in the unknown,

When you release all control

 

When I think of home, I think of you

As the dew of the morning begins to rise

When I think of love, I think of you

As the winds of spring begin to sigh

The brush of my lips on yours

Reminds me why my spirit soars

 

The grace of god, may it be shown

To all who seek the bounty

I have been blessed to know

To gaze upon life,

With the eyes of an eagle

To see, as sight is born.

So do I find solace,

As this heart of mine

Continues to warm

This life, this wondrous creation

The sun that sets to rise again

The story of time, as it strings its dance

May it always be

As it should,

I with you, you with I

A whispered love,

That brings the sweetest sigh

 

When I think of home, I think of you

As the dew of the morning begins to rise

When I think of love, I think of you

As the winds of spring begin to sigh

Every brush of my lips on yours

Reminds me why my spirit soars

 

As the garden whispers it’s passing

In autumn’s fall, I hold her eyes

As the garden whispers it’s passing

The only sound, the leaves as they fly

Gentle hands, are sweeter still

Brushing strands of hers,

On that nearby hill

As life unfurls, in the glimpse of a smile

So do I love to sit and kiss awhile

 

The currents that guide us through time

Ripple through the bends,

Steady me as we go,

For always, If I could choose,

I would choose to be yours.

the edge of it all

I have been studying various healing modalities now since my own abrupt awakening to my own inner consciousness. I was young, younger than I am today. I was depressed, I was angry and I was self-destructive. Most, if not all people encounter depression through their lives in some way whether through a loved one, a friend, a pet or themselves. My emotions and the feelings associated would cycle like the tides. Manic was the only word I could use to describe the perplexing state of my existence.

 

            I was the moment and the awe found in the rays of the sun as they shone through the leaves But I was as dark, and oppressive as the most traumatic moments I’d experience through myself and through others. There were times I felt the pain of others so acutely there were no boundaries to form any sense of separation. Going out in public was impossible. If I came near someone who was lost in their own darkness it would fuck me up for days. I love naturally; I want to help others naturally. And in some way, I felt that I could take the pain of others and heal it. In my state, I did. But in doing so, I took the personal power from others. It seemed I had multiple mental thought complexes and years/decades of inner work to answer for..

 

 Self-love and self-hatred seemed to fluctuate like the balance of yin-yang. These were the hardest days of my life.

 

But they lead me to where I am today. They showed me that our darkness will always yield way to light. We are that light. And no matter how oppressive our lives may be, one light…one being with radiance…like a candle could truly push that darkness away. Even if only for an instant, the illumination it creates could stir that long-searched awakening.

 

Ultimately, my life was at the metaphysical fork in the road where I truly believe I had the choice between the cycles of pain I had endured throughout different lives where I could end up in my own extravagant display of self-destruction, abuse and ultimately death or I could choose the harder path… to heal.

 

A Native American shaman changed my life. I came to him because I had no hope left. I didn’t believe in myself, my life or the beauty of the world any more. I couldn’t see it. The suffering around me was all too raw and real.

 

But inside of me, something changed. The gears of my destruction stopped, and reversed. Slowly at first, but carrying me with greater and greater momentum to my own healed path. Ultimately I hope towards my healed place.

 

Now, 7 years later, I can barely see the same person when I look in the mirror. Yes, that part still exists inside of me but it’s found a state of solace. I have been studying qi-gong, practising yoga, eating well, living with love, counting my blessings and now started training to become a shaman. The process may take years, decades or a life-time to truly become a medicine-man. But I can offer healing. I can change the lives of those I love, and have yet to meet. It’s empowering and extremely gratifying.

 

The journey is hard. And the healing gets harder as it goes, but with that difficulty comes greater strength, greater compassion for the trials of others and truly, a sense of oneness with humanity.

 

Namaste friends,

Thank you for reading.

 

-Chris

more naners! and an ‘umminbird

this is my sweetheart and these are my friends.

the NANERS!

to give you an approximate, she’s a fluttering 5’1 and they’re about 7 1/2′ tall at this point which is about mid-July. At the end of September they were standing at about 13′. First year growth, without any fertilizer but my own morning love!

They are so dope!

Many a mushroom trip spent looking at the stars through their glorious towering foliage. nothing has ever made me feel like such an innocent child, as these herbaceous friends of mine!

It really brings out the crazy in me, and my neighbours look at me sideways now…

What is that young man doing over there, to his garden..

 

THIS IS NOT THE JUNGLE

extreme tropical gardening part 2

this is what the musa bananas look like before winter.
same view, with a massive smoke-bush in front
quite the contrast, right?

counting the days till gardening season begins and guaranteed fresh organically grown veggies!

Extreme tropical gardening (Ottawa)

This is what my tropical hardy bananas look like mid February in Ottawa. Fingers crossed they make it through! It’s been a terrible winter and I’ve already lost half my koi.

Hope you enjoy the post and feel inspired to be a bit “different” with your gardens.

Get those fingers dirty,

Chris

A petition I’ve started to end Fluoridation in Ottawa’s water supply

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/750/023/454/petition-to-end-the-fluoridation-of-ottawas-municipal-water-supply/

If it speaks to you, and you could take the time to sign it I’d greatly appreciate it.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/488/267/588/#sign

Stop Fracking In Canada!

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/488/267/588/#sign

An excellent petition for something that we should really do away with!

Enough of the disconnect. Let’s start taking care of our world, and our communities!

to dream in darkness

Many times I’ve given word to pen,

Experience to paper, love to a friend

And in each hour, that we passed in the presence of the moon

The goddess softly sighed, and gave her banner to the day

Carry it forward, she said with a smile

To parts unknown, I will retire

Rest my head, among the bower

The serene garden, the evening flower

The red leaves, and the winds off the river

We drove for hours, with no sense of direction.

But we gave each twinkle of twilight,

Our respect and our reflection

The day shall come, where we are one

And I will relinquish all control.

and we fall..

upon the moss that’s made its bed

here in the hollows, for thousands of years

there lay a stream that found its way

into the heart

of an ancient man,

~

when you find love,

it holds you, deep into the night

pleasant as the morning,

a deeper blessing than that of sight

your beauty, how it strikes a chord

a melody i hold, and sing

the love i’d sing to you,

as you close those eyes, sweetest of eyes

the eyes that hold me,

so strongly.

the flesh that held me,

as i held you,

the love that found me,

when i found you,

~

thirteen rays in the new days sun

that split the trees, and danced among the moss

pixies and magic, the calm breath of autumn

when the leaves begin to bleed,

the stars grieve their passing.

~

as the winter fell, and hugged the land

whispers of slumber seemed to hold your bones

a cloak that shared, a gentle warmth

as we loved, deep into the year

and deeper still,

we fall my dear.

For the child in us all

Dear Child,
While you slept,
The Sun rose
While you wept,
A sound arose
Mirth in the garden
A song of Dawn,
Carried by the birds.
And while you slept
The Earth, she wept.
The mystery of the Moon
Cleansed her beauty.
For as you dreamt, 
A mist did fall,
Tears of Heaven
That found the grass.
And as he rose
The glorious Sun,
He gave his warmth to everyone.
And Gaia’s waking
Shook the mist from the grass 
A dew that lingered, 
Like crystals and blades of glass.
~
They found the sky
And rose with life
To come again
~
When seeds had ripened
When life was called to start anew
The fabrics that had held you bound
Now, they comfort you
For you greet the darkness,
You smile at your pain,
You know that in all things,
A balance,
You must strive to sustain.
~
Dear Child,
Where do you go when you dream?
Home, a distant land, or across the sea?
Where did you find yourself?
Upon waking,
Alive and well!
Perchance, a story to tell?
With a light to shine
And a heart that was aching
To gather
Those you love
Loved, and will love.
~
My Dear Child,
Your light is born
When the stars collide
Your life is so beautiful
Like you are inside.
Your path,
You walk with careful steps.
~
But Child,
Please,
Don’t ever fear to run,
The light will hold you
Like the Earth greets the Sun.

ode to a new day rising

From the ashes of what I was, I am

A million suns in the beads of the sand

The sound of drums that echo from the plains

And the rain falls,

To wash away the history we’ve stained

Wash me sweetly, my beloved

Keep me humble, so I may rise above it

From the eyes of the eagle, let me see my path

So that I may soar above the hurt of my past

Guide the magic from my heart

Into the ageless, out of the dark

~

The colours that bleed at the end of the day

For my mother I cry, for the mother I praise

All of the laughter and all of the screams

The cries of my family still haunt my sleep

A knife that’s thrown, and caught by flesh

Remake us and shake us into our place

A guardian of Eden

The sweetest child, with the sweetest laugh

Held in rapture, held in bliss

Caught by her sweetest kiss

How we hurt, my brothers

How we ache, my sisters

Manipulated, capitulated

Broken and bruised

Segregated,

We demonstrated how we’re

Bleeding and used

Our wolves become the sheep

The sheep is too scared to bleat

Too scared to storm the streets

While we destroy other lives

And champion our privilege

How did we grow so ignorant?

Where was the form, to sign my consent?

To kill little children and rape the innocent?

The beauty of our existence

Overshadowed by our unwillingness

To push back, as we’re attacked

With hyper-sexualisation,

Gluttonous introspection,

The disconnected collection

Of the limbs of our Mother

How we monopolise, and traumatize

Desensitize, believe in lies

Afraid to cry,

Silently weeping as we die

I was a fool to believe

For all my life

~

The Me, above the I

For it is not me that cries

It isn’t my family that dies

But in silence I stand by,

Silently clapping

As they carry in the feast

Into the belly of the beast

~

And we lost sight of our light,

And we forgot how to fight

And we grew quiet, and fake

Instead of loud and awake

The beauty we bring into life

The first breath of a child

How our smiles turned to denial

That the magic of life

Was only a dream

Time to grow up now

Time to give in now

Time to conform now

Time to stand down now

And we feared the beast.

~

Fuck the fear, fuck the hate

I am only love; I will rise above the judgement

For I am the bastards, and I am the raped

I am the homeless, and the eyes you forsake

I am the burning and the Earth as she shakes

I am the diseased, and I am the cure

I believe in our potential, and why we formed

I am the hatred that shines in your eyes

From the fear of the ones you can’t let inside

~

When the child in me, feels so alone

I go home, I go home

To the woods and streams

To the stars and dreams

I go home, I go home

~

When I wish to fly, when I pray to die

At the end of it all

When I wish to soar, when I wish to hoard

My eyes begin to burn

With the tears that take me deeper

~

I prayed to feel

And I feel it all

Our mother is burning,

Her children, yearning

To accept their mantle,

Become the divine,

Realize, with real eyes

That the trust she holds in you

Is the connection from which you were born

From stars were you formed

From plants were you formed

From the sun, and sea

And all her ecstasy

A child of magic,

Inherent divinity.

~

My love you are light,

And the fields of gold,

The petals of the lotus,

And the scent of the rose

The harmony of the stream

And the mist in the jungle

The birds as they wake the day

Be on your way, child

Never lose sight, of the strength in my blood

I will ride this wave

Until the medicine that lives in my veins

Takes me home

Take me home

~

Each breath under the falling sky

The grass that shades the fireflies

The sage I burn to start anew

The tears that fall when I cast aside

The path that lies before me,

The scars to know what it’s all for

To burn anonymous

My homage to the stars

The illest

This is my brotha from a four-legged motha!

Chewbacca, the wookie.

He’s one of a trio, and one of a kind.
My little brother. 19 teeth pulled because of his food obsession, but still soooo smug about it all!

He’s wearing a bow-tie for all you ladies!

Any takers?

Bobby Banana

This is my friend, Bob ‘The Behemoth’. The first banana I ever planted and cared for, and the first plant friend I ever had.

He (it just seeeeemed to have a macho vibe) is the reason why I fell in love with horticulture. And through that passion, ultimately Koi keeping, digging really big holes and moving plants around to satisfy my obsessive compulsive tendencies of accomplishing something every day.

It’s probably clear to most of you that yes, in this picture I am very high haha… Although I don’t smoke anymore, I will never have any regrets.

Ironically, through plant teachers, I fell in love with plants.
I learned some of the most valuable lessons I hold to the core of my being through my experimentation.

But now,

2014 has shown itself to be a year of change. A year of clarity and a year of casting my light into the darkest places of my soul.

Banana blessings to you all.

– Chris 🙂

TOWARD NOT EATING ANIMALS

Understanding our place, and our role on this earth is mandatory.
We have a responsibility to be guardians, and the gentle warriors of our planet. Most animals naturally look to us with love, curiosity and wonder. When we betray their trust, we teach them to act in fear, isolation and hate.
When we are the abusers, we will be abused.

ANIMAL

From Wikipedia Commons. http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:2pigs.jpg
By Titanium22

I got sober from drugs and alcohol in 2000. In the process of recovering I realized that from then on spirituality was going to be an important focus of my life—that it had to be, since the connection to a Higher Power was necessary to keep me sober and alive.

I didn’t realize that recovery would connect me to myself as well, to what was really inside me.

During the early part of my recovery I realized that spirituality could be an open field to play on. I grew up around Catholicism and I didn’t feel like it was that way at all when I was young. I realized that my Higher Power could be one of my own understanding—that I had a lot of room to explore.

So I started exploring. One day I was reading a passage written by a Buddhist monk…

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Nahko Bear

Nahko Bear

I believe in paying respect where respect is due!

Nicole and I stumbled upon this band by chance, and hearing his music inspires me to be more open and accepting of who and what I am. 

He inspired me to start a blog, so thanks Nahko!

 

CHECK HIM OUT, HES DOPE

words of my heart

when the wisdom of my heart,

falls still with the passing of the day

i give praise,

to the light i have known.

to the darkness,

through which i’ve grown

through the animals who guide me home.

with friends at my feet,

i am renewed,

with love in my life,

i am open.

 

little hummingbird

 

This is my love, Nicole.

She is my little hummingbird, and my sweet little bear.
She is an absolute light in my life. Hence, the track titled “Light Up My Life” on my soundcloud.

By the grace of god, I met her. After several years of inner reflection, self-imposed separation to lick my wounds, refresh my perspectives and thaw a frozen heart…I met her.

She pushes me to the edge of my boundaries, and drives me to break them. She is nothing but loving, kind and nurturing. She is a queen, and she is my greatest, truest friend.

In our time together, my perspective has grown, changed, been remolded and evolved.
I give thanks every day for her light in my life.

In my own darkness, on my days where I lose sight of my own inner flame..she shines for both of us.

For the love that she has shown me, and the gentle hand she offered that pulled me from my own introspective, jaded view of humanity I will always be grateful.

She set my soul ablaze, with a passion to change, impart my own lessons and to offer my medicine to any who would receive it.
In changing my life, she has changed the lives of countless others.

One million blessings to her every day.

I love you sweetheart.

Thanks for reading.

-Chris

Hello, hello…..(echo..echooo)

it’s so quiet in here! i want to say to all who are following me and all who will follow me (get it, its the first post)

that i love you.

so bro, i love you. 

and all of you bloggers who stumble upon this, you’re all amazing people with a unique light to share in this world. and whatever your circumstances are, whatever your standing, race, sexual preference or gender. namaste to you brothers and sisters, mothers and fathers.

you are light , and you are love!